Time is motile; it is irreverently so. Man, in a bid to undo, in his best way, this attribute of time, came up with an invention that stills it. Hence, in as many clicks and flashes as possible, time is shamed as it stays frozen in our hands.  Time could be regarded as the clit or un-clit of our emotions. It could be pleasure-giving. Or otherwise, hence the necessity of the coinage, ‘un-clit’. Whichever way it goes, we cannot but stroke it to a climax when we feel like doing so. But that is only when we have access to that sleek, long-gone phenomenon; when it has been embalmed on some card, album or storage device.

Photographs remind me of my wisdom, and most times, my foolishness. It’s the age of selfies and photographs sometimes remind me of my solitude - maybe narcissism is a better choice - as well as my ability to fit into groups. Photographs remind me of frowns, smiles and tears that may not be seen again. They often make one conscious of the nudity and arbitrariness around. What is Kim Kardashian’s nude without a camera?

Poetry performs almost the same functions, for me. The words of the poet are the clicks of the camera. They are more. More than a refrigerator for time. They are beyond a mortuary for that motile, ‘long-gone phenomenon’: time. Poetry, because of its devotion to imagination - unlike photography which gives us what used to be and is - creates its own space and time. Poetry is such a vast cosmos and the work of the poet, huge. You should read Emmanuel Iduma’s preface to Dami Ajayi’s chapbook, Daybreak and other Poems as well as Umar Sidi’s The Poet of Sand.

The interactions of the written word and stilled time have been explored in the digital age and the literature of the age. Both have been channelled into the pursuit of similar courses. This line of thought takes me back to Between Art and me, a piece on the interaction of different art forms and the significance such mergers birth. In the case of Sandstorms in June, both offer a memento, a generation’s. It’s a memento capable of contributing in its little way to the traditional publishing versus internet literature discourse. In terms of production, Sandstorms in June identifies with the novel of the two though, while the reader may choose to shred the collection of its virtual-ness by not reading on a screen but by printing it out. 

Sandstorms is how a generation has decided to venerate its alma mater, the Obafemi Awolowo University, Ile Ife, on the wings of an eclectic art form. This generation – the same which birthed the likes of Dami Ajayi, whose collection of poetry, Clinical Blues, was released not long ago, Emmanuel Iduma (author of Farad) and Kayode Taiwo Olla (author of Softlie) - has one thing or the other that ties it to the supposed Africa’s most beautiful campus. This appellation may not be wholly right. No? The beauty of great Ife no longer lies in its structures – they’re still there though. It’s now a thing of the mind and Ife writers don’t fail in romanticising their identity. Hence, one would notice convergences in the portrayals some of these writers conjure in their individual works. Take this quote from Iduma’s Farad as the first sample of this convergence: 

Night time on the campus was usually quiet, but as she approached the major lecture halls, she heard, faintly, the praying voices of students. The praying voices came, no doubt, from the Sports Complex – almost all parts of the complex were being used as prayer grounds. Not even the main football field was spared. She imagined being in a prayer ground – would she kneel or lie down, or maybe stand? Being a Sunday-only Christian, her prayers were restricted to silent mutters she often felt were not fervent enough (135).

These lines from Dami Ajayi’s Clinical Blues say nothing different from the above:

Wee hours in Ife,
Secluded in the Geology wing of White House,
My head nestled on Bailey's surgical account,
Neurons swirling with stuff, symptoms and signs,
My mind is tucked in the recent past,
Bailey's on the rock and the thrusting
Tunes of New Buka, a few paces and hours away.
The soft flap of a Bailey and Love page
Slow dancing to August's gust or Damian Marley's
Patience is reminiscent of knocking Mercy's door
At Uncovered Pavilion.

masu pri ka ta ska ba ba

Who is dancing on this tapestry of words
That the wind lifts for my arousal? (62)

This stanza from Tobi Adebowale’s ‘Flock of Tongues’ in Sandstorms further reflects the intertextuality that the quotes above invoke:

An infantry of saved souls file out,
Hewing and mowing the enemy,
Undulating arms and a staccato of voices;
       I think of the squash duel near IGI,
       I turn, feeling a riot within;
       I sense I must leave to well up (29).




The uniqueness of Sandstorms is in its apt representation of the Ife reality. Ife is a world of its own: its wars and victories, its love and trysts, its deaths too.  Its aluta consciousness and the faults therein. Its strength too. Hence, we find each of the six poets addressing whichever of the Ife realities that catches his attention.

Damilola Yakubu’s ‘We Do Give a Fuck’ is one of my favourites. It beams a poetic light on how death is taken in Sandstorm’s setting. It reminds me of Vero’, a friend I lost a year ago and the power of death to unite the living.

Death is here, everywhere
Regardless of what our mantra is,
We do give a fuck.

I hear:
Wole ran amok before his God,
Yet Ara never came back.
A car’s tire hit Tayo into oblivion.
Dipo made poison his friend.
A friend of a friend
Of a friend died.

Our candles are not for reading alone (77).




Victor Olusanya’s ‘Aluta Market’ is another reminder of the power death wields over the animate and inanimate. Aluta Market used to be like the university community’s mammy market. For no defined reason, it’s now like a wasteland and has been taken over by nature’s emissaries: overgrown bushes. Close to Aluta Market is the school’s nightly love market, the one no Ife student can deny ever patronising. Here is what I mean: when you don’t take part in the trysts of Anglo Moz, you either feed on the sights they offer or be engaged in a conversation about the going on at the location. Sandstorms would have been incomplete without referencing this location. Gbolahan Badmus’ ‘September Rush’ and Victor Olusanya’s ‘Anglo Moz’ are apt renderings of the location. Samsudeen Alabi’s ‘Moremi and the Sojourn of Hands’ and Tomiwa Ilori’s ‘The Pit’ bare the intricacies of sex, maybe lust too.




The complexities that surround the Ife reality may not be understood until one sets one’s feet into the vast murk that they are. The beauty that lies in setting one’s feet in that murk is in the beauty that comes out of it. Contradictory? Such is Ife. Life is not unlike that too. Going through Ife is like a sandstorm, one that leaves not just its good marks on you. There are scars too. Whichever, all are mementos.

The voices that echo in the pages of Sandstorms are fresh and real, very real. 

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Of the Thriving Frond
(For 'lakunle)

When the next eid arrives
And the next
The next
And the next
A thousand eids and more
When each arrives
Its baggage and rams
Hopes and aspirations with it,
I’ll rip semi-healed scars
And serve memories of wars, ours,
With death’s spite.

To them that care,
I’ll tell of mon pere
And ma mere.
Palms hacked at noon.

I'll tell the tale of a thriving frond
Watching sleeplessly over a hacked palm
And its plain
I’ll tell my tale
And theirs
For a greater them glows in me.


Sunday Talk
(for 'Deola)

The last time we talked was on a Sunday
Talk of you and I
Bards’ phalluses and cunts
And wine
Love and hate
And friends
We spoke of death, you started it
We ran out of airtime.

More Sundays will come
And we’ll talk
And run outta airtime
And talk some more
For death’s scared of you.


November Pour

Clop Clop Clop
The puddle behind my room weeps
As drops of cum baptise it
Water washing water

Heaven’s a fucker this November
Fucking bad
And with no ending
No rush
It often orgasms with a rumble

And resumes the do.


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It annoys! Yes, it does! Was I an American, I would say fuck, and fuck, and fuck all over again! I would even put shit as jaara. Waking up to father playing Louis Armstrong’s What a Wonderful World makes me want to do some outrageous thing. I want to lift the DVD player off the scarcely filled shelf. I want to fling it at someone, anyone across the room. There is no other person but father and I want him to see that the world is indeed far from wonderful. It is only wonderful when he sinks his butts into our malnourished sofa. Good sofas, I know, are stuffed to fullness: their bums, cheeks and all. They don’t creak like ours, even when you do it on them. I know that because I have done it so many times with our landlord’s son on their couch. Ours is not a couch, it is a three-sitter, one that could take five medium-sized people. Father sits proudly in the middle of the three-sitter every morning while his poverty occupies what is left of the spaces to his right and left. It’s a wonderful world.

Father’s pipe toes and froes the path from his fingers to his lips as he hums Armstrong. Father’s all I’ve got, and his absence when I need him most proves why he has no woman in his paltry life. He has whores though, the one-night stand types that quell his lust only for his poor man’s recompense. There are times I feel I am no different from these women; that I have the same blood flowing in me. One of them probably had me and ran away. Dad is not a keeper.

I am like dad’s women; we rarely act differently. Where we do, they are inconsequential. Segun, our landlord’s son, after thrusting me back and forth always has the naira note that removes the fear of hunger-stricken days from my mind. Twice a week. He slips a crisp note into my bra before I leave his room each time. Father knows this though he pretends not to; I don’t feed off his money.



The morning’s light is not done sweeping the night’s shadows. I walk past father and towards the window to part the blinds. The new day shoots its gleam into the room and the room is awash with brightness. The shadows lost their nerve and they, with astonishing immediacy, begin to seek refuge wherever light was shy of. Under the chairs and shelf. Into father’s pipe and through it, into father. I press my head to the iron proof by the window while the breeze of the morning flushes into the room. My eyes traverse the street before them. The road, clothed in tar runs with a snake’s ambiguity, bending that way and this till it glides into obscurity. On its two sides lay houses of different sizes and oldness. Our street is a mixture of time’s binaries. Where we live is not one of the recent ones. Its landlord is its second and it is certain it would have a third. Our society could be embarrassingly philanthropic. Nothing is too small, bad or hard for it to pass down. Wives. Religion. Material things. Feud. So, father would, when in a sober mood, blame his father for handing down a voracious libido. I’ve got an ample share of it too. 

I detach my head from its embrace with the iron proof for some time to check if normalcy, like always, has happened. It is normalcy that is at work when father sleeps off, pipe in mouth as Louis Armstrong’s song remains on repeat, every morning. Father leaves home every afternoon to join other men, jobless like him, in filling potholes. They eat off the failed system that is our government. I glue my head back to the iron proof as I observe what is normalcy on the street. Everything, like Father is following a pattern. A routine. The drainages on both sides of the road, always fuck-thirsty, have opened their laps to the penetration of the morning sun. The sun, known for its dexterity in giving a head, laps up all the slimy liquid in the orifice.  Most houses around have their windows agape like ours, spit and other trash flying out. Garbage bins spill their guts into the drainages. That is man at work. The drainages exercise absolute perseverance while they wait for the day of reckoning, when they would pay men back in worse coins. When such times come, the atmosphere is bathed in the putrid smell of waste. Houses like ours vomit water and other belongings with every heavy downpour. The street is alive with its folks and their routines with them. Those who work do so, day and night. Those who steal do too. I do my thing too. We love. We cry and make love. We kill. We die. It’s the same life and the same people in pursuit of more. More money. More cars. Life’s luxuries and no lack.

Lack could be so daring; it sticks up a middle finger in the face of some of us. We don’t watch it do just that, we hustle. We hustle and yet lack. So while cars, new and tattered, rightly acquired and otherwise, impose their frames on the road every morning, children, poor like their parents, sac bags on their backs scamper to the sides of the road. Some fall into the drainages. It’s just the beginning of their hustle, a lifetime of it. When they climb out, their plates remain clutched to their chests. The chests brim with fear. I see its excess pour with the timid smiles they flash at their mates, as they press on their way. It’s not the fear of the rich. It’s the fear of obscure tomorrows; one which I share in.

I turn back to gift Father a full gaze. He is in the middle of a throaty, croak-like snore.  His sleep is like death, a peaceful one. Nothing but him could wake him. It’s his world, just his. So wonderful and yet, not one bit so to me. I know what I want; it’s the converse of what seems wonderful to father, a life so different, so fulfilled. And I’ll get it.

I’ll just take a walk, with my Ghana Must Go bag of course.

This is probably going to be the most random post I have ever published on this blog. I don’t remember ever doing this before on this space. No, I don’t. Every post, no matter how boring or dumb (yeah, I know I have been forcing them down your throats) chops, I mean chops so amply into my time. The writing and the days of proofreading and proofreading and proofreading that follows. Don’t mind those times I open with something like ‘This morning’ or ‘Today’, I don’t start writing such posts the same day. I don’t give up that easily on my posts; I brush them again and again till they are almost-okay. They are never okay. That confession, I’m sure, must have got you wondering what big deal it is to blog. As I write this, I know this post is going to be an exception. It’s going to go up on the blog, hours at most, after I’m done writing. Why? I think I just need to fill this space with my sincere and raw thoughts NOW. This urgency didn’t just come of its own will. A couple of the blog’s readers in the past few days have quizzed me on the deafening silence here. My conscience too.

Let me say this, it is not for want or lack of things to write. There are always things to write, to blog about.

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To say there aren’t things to write is some kind of tough thing for me. I may not be the wittiest writer, but to pen a small ode to either momma’s dishes or Umar Sidi’s poetry chapbook; a rant of a few-hundred words; to do a shikini appreciation of Asa’s Dead Again or to just talk on and on about how much I love to hear Tye Tribbett scream; to address incessant pesterings by friends and foes alike to go get a girlfriend; to whine a little about T. B. Joshua or do some erotica story, aha, ought not to be a problem. But what happens when doing all that is a problem? What happens when one realises that sitting behind a computer all in the name of blogging isn’t all that is to being fulfilled, that there is more to getting a life? What happens when you realise that blogging does not foot your bills; that it rather adds in its own little way, to the bills to be footed?

Yet, there are always things to write…

There are always things to write though the nudge, passion or encouragement to write them may not always be present. Hey, that’s me admitting what’s been happening to me in the past weeks. The reality of trying to settle down in a new phase of one’s life is enough to overwhelm one till that nudge, passion or encouragement recedes into some box. You remember the Martian child and his box?

But I’m breaking out of the box, I mean it.

That said, there are times blogging serves an escapist function. Call it a needed distraction from reality if you like. Now is one of such times. And what I feel now, just one thing, is that I’m filling a blank space, occupying it with thoughts, raw, and maybe anger. Just me filling this space with me. And knowing that you are somewhere there to tolerate me.

All I’ve said here and now is a build-up to the purpose of this soooo random post: I appreciate everyone who has at one time or the other come to read from this my small room and parlour on blogosphere. Thanks for enduring my vewi vewi vewi boring, inconsistent and emotional self. 

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